A Man in Boxing

By Miša Klimeš: ‘Now whoever has the courage and a strong and a collected spirit in his breast, let him come forward, lace up the gloves and put his hands up.’ Virgil

Boxers are nomads trekking

through mental deserts,

they are forced to find themselves or lose.

They must bridge valleys

with rivers slicing a wound

through the landscape below them

and so they must attempt

to reach the clouds where all gods are supposed to be

and try to harness a similar power…

Except these people are not gods

although they engage in the Herculean;

perhaps they are half-human and half-god

with immortal wills trapped

in mortal bodies which glisten

while lungs heave.

The fighter hones himself

through the hum of a skipping rope.

This is a blacksmith forging a mind

into a blade that has to cut down

any barbarian on the battlefield.

Skipping is also the search for balance:

Arm must be leg and leg must be arm

because the body is looking for its own rhythm.

Running makes the boxer strive for

the stamina of a wolf migrating

across a snow beaten loneliness.

Boxing is a loneliness too

and any warrior must expose their physique

to the ritualistic elements:

Sweat is rain,

the air knocked out of you is wind,

fatigue is the drought everywhere,

the adrenalin is an avalanche

and when these are overcome, pride

is the middle finger tossed

at the odds.

Chasing one’s own shadow is essential as well

since one is following the elusive doppelganger

cast from light

blackening against the body

which places an eclipse on the wall,

revealing the shy monster living

in the almost unreachable caves

of the self – the deepest catacombs of oceans

where seemingly alien creatures lie,

not supposed to be part our world.

Sparring is the last internship before

a march into the ring

with a crowd screaming, booing

and cheering from a medieval time

we rather forget

with our ancestors yelling through us:

Their voices tell us of the harshness they were born from

but we have lost.

*****

These days I look at boxing

through the wrong end of the binoculars

that shrinks the sport to a little figure –

A man

with a feckless grin

remembering better times,

tasting stale beer

in a pub underused for years

reading tabloid’s back pages

where a fight report is a rare patch

of countryside squeezed

between the cities of football and cricket.

He surveys its fragmentation

thinking only pockets of it will remain

and grow slimmer each year.

His thoughts wander through the Hall of Fame holding the fragile past.

All the great names are there:

Ali, Dempsey, Duran, Louis, Robinson.

They are empires which have come and gone.

Their auras rule our imaginations and dazzle us

for the reason that they climbed personal mountains

and sometimes each other

as they left flags on high peaks,

left records behind like all the big civilisations

and were Caesars, Alexanders and Hannibals

in their own periods of history,

their achievements became landmarks

for the future fighters to navigate their own way

through a vast world.

This world is now indifferent to their glory.

My passion is a film reel replaying Joe Frazier

arch a left-hook into Ali’s face

that floors him for those eternal seconds.

Ali becomes a ghost

as he moves with the subtlety

of a ballet dancer past William’s fists.

Duran sweats the age off his body

like a slave throws off their chain

as he defeats the giant in Barkley,

Gomez is an encircled army holding out

against the better army in Sanchez

even though he is losing.

Hagler and Hearns force

the other to shudder

with inexcusable violence.

Henry Armstrong moves

with a work rate no one can fathom,

his heart was bigger than most men

yet I also see Ali

too battle-scarred to talk

shaking from all the punches he absorbed,

Marciano being retired

too early by his plane crash

and losing his undefeated record.

Liston all alone

in his house with the speculation of a mafia hit

or suicide persisting forever

and I think of all the those fighters who have fallen,

too many to remember or name

with Louis taxed into poverty,

he was a doorman in the end

and crooked promoters bend us

to their own will,

forcing fights onto fans they never wanted

and do not want

but I cannot let go of my faith

and I have a vision of an exile returning to his home

and a champion lifting his world title

at a clapping crowd

and our damaged god Ali marching

with the Olympic flame,

defying everyone’s expectations again

yet not his own.

I think boxing is as strong as him:

Flawed but still ready for the challenge,

hurt yet prepared to struggle on,

down but not counted out

and even though it has its civil wars,

it will come together again

and the wounds will heal.

Our land must find new rain

that will replenish its dry rivers

which will nourish the soil’s thirst

that will grow new cycles

of birth and death.

Only then can I be the man

sitting in the pub reading

the paper with a smile on my face

as the next superstar stares at me.